Just for a minute.

What if the storm ends and I dont see you. 

Hey.

Its funny that lately I have been so quiet, humble inside. Emotional but calm. So emotional that everything fades away if i compare it. I dont know why. I feel powerful enlightment from somewhere but I dont what to do with it. Its not like I know something that others dont, maybe. It is something complete, something what is not unfinished like everything else in my life - broken, not done, blown up.  Maybe its a plan, maybe not. I would really like to show inner me but I cant. Its not like that. I cant just open my chest and let my friends see how much is in me. It is odd, funny, freaky, depressing, good/bad place full of love. Hard to explain, "I want to see you as you are now" kind of a action.. Stronger than feelings and that makes it hard to live with. Its blinking in me. Slow and appears only when I really-really open myself to someone, somewhere.

Its time to sleep now. Big question mark is hangin on top of me.

Good night.
R.